Need your perspective

I am hoping you could help me see another perspective on something that has been challenging me. I was asked recently by my Naturopathic Physician what I was willing to do to get pregnant. I immediately noticed some resistance to her question. As I explored my resistance deeper I could see Fear. On some level I am still afraid to get pregnant because part of me doubts that I can support my fertility clients if I am pregnant. I remember about 6 years ago when I had been trying to conceive for a least 1 year with no luck, a good friend of mine told me she was pregnant. I felt a deep surge of jealousy and my reponse was "get out!" and I pushed her - yes just like Elaine from Seinfeld. I felt ashamed that I responded that way and immediately gave her a hug and said congratulations. My response today is very different. I am genuinely celebrating with women when they share news of their pregnancy but I know many of my clients feel like I did 6 years ago when they hear about a pregnancy or birth. Some women have expressed that it is easier to celebrate with women who have struggled to become pregnant and that it gives them a sense of hope - a belief that it is possible for them too. While others have shared that no matter who it is, they don't like to see, hear or know about pregnancies. I help women see another perspective in those situations. The coach in me knows that if I were to get pregnant and continue to work with my fertility clients that the learning and lessons that would occur are exactly what each client would need. Still there is that fertility client in me that doubts and worries. I would love to hear your comments. How would you feel coming to a Yoga for Fertility class and seeing a pregnant instructor? Be honest!