Taking the leap of FAITH

My husband and I have been open to conceiving another child for the last 5 years. While I would love to become pregnant I have had a deep calling to adopt a little girl from Africa. I hear the calling in my heart as the voice of my daughter asking me to come and get her. I have named her FAITH, which stands for Finding Answers In The Heart. When I call her spirit to me she gently touches my right cheek. It is always the same gently touch although lately she is also holding my right hand. I know she is already born. I can sense her energy and some days it is weak while others it is strong. I know and trust our paths will cross when it is meant to be. Up until this week that has always felt so far away.

2009 was an extremely challenging year for my husband and I. We are both self employed and his business took a huge hit. Up until last spring we were depending on his salary to barely cover our cost of living. I know he wants us to be in a completely different financial position before we adopt a child. While in my head that makes complete sense, but in my heart I feel torn.

Do I choose logic or do I trust completely in the calling deep within. It is calling to me so loudly that it is showing up in my health. I can't ignore it any longer. I cannot stop an idea whose time has come. I cannot "not" listen to my inner guidance without paying the price in my health. If my heart and mind have any emotional conflict it shows up in my body immediately.

I was guided to explore the internet again last week looking for information on African adoption. I found a website that I have explored before but was guided this time to make a phone call to inquire. I didn't think we would be able to begin the process for another year or 2 because of the high cost of international adoption. I heard back from the agency on Tuesday and after discussing some of my options I suddenly realized that this is possible. It is possible sooner than later. I can actually begin the process with a minimal investment and take the first steps in bringing my daughter home. I had tears in my eyes as we were speaking. HOPE filled my heart and I was overwhelmed with the idea that we could take the leap and begin the process now.

I was excited and at the same time afraid. I know when I set something in motion it will become a reality! I am a powerful creator and when I align with something completely it will manifest. I had to speak to my husband to make sure he was ok with the idea of taking the leap. He has always been so supportive and I know he is open to adoption but he hasn't felt the same calling as I have.

My husband and I spoke about it yesterday evening and he has agreed that we can begin the process of inquiry. We will meet with the adoption agency in March and have all our questions answered and create a plan of action. We could start our home study within the next few months. After the home study the wait period for Africa is about 1 year.

It is difficult to really capture how I am feeling at this time. I have a renewed sense of HOPE and gratitude. I feel my daughter "FAITH" is close and I get a sense of relief from her as well. I know in my heart we will be together. I know we will find a way to make this happen. I will follow my guidance and I will follow the flow of the universe. I will choose love in every moment so that I can stay in alignment with the path I am meant to take to bring her home into my arms. I will not force or try to control anything. I give it over completely to the universe to orchestrate and align all that needs to be aligned as we take this leap of FAITH.

Dear Spirit Baby FAITH,
I love you with all of my heart and we are coming for you! Be strong and hold faith! I will hold you deep in my heart and send loving healing energy to you each and every day! You will remain safe in my heart until the day I can hold you in my arms.
Love you forever and always,
Mom xo