Wednesday, December 30, 2009

It is time!


The holidays have been great although I found myself having brief moments of sadness. My dearest friend gave birth to a baby boy on Christmas Day. While I was genuinely excited for her, I realized deep down that my desire to become pregnant is still strong.

Over the last 5 years I have found a truly beautiful place of acceptance and peace on my fertility journey but acceptance does not mean I am giving up on my dream. This last year has been about sharing my fertility experience with others so that women and couples all over the world can have access to the support Yoga for Fertility classes can offer them. I enjoyed traveling across Canada and teaching instructors so that they can begin classes in their area. I feel as if I have taken a break in a way from conceiving and channeled my creative energy into building the foundation in my business so that I can take the time to focus on my desire.

I have a new vision for 2010! I will continue to focus on my own health and preparing to have a baby. I will channel my fertile creative energy toward my own Spirit Babies and invite them to come to me in whatever way they need to. They are close! I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. In my meditation this morning I was able to connect to the little boy that has been around me. He is quiet but I get a sense that he is ready to come. We are both ready for him to come. I will stay open and watch for signs to lead me on the path I am meant to take. I am excited! My fears and doubts have dissolved and all that is left is an unwaivering FAITH and KNOWING!

Affirmation today: "I have a deep FAITH and KNOWING I am ready! I welcome you in to my life with my heart wide open!"

Monday, December 21, 2009

The Gift of Mindfulness Through Fertility Challenges


I know how challenging it can be to deal with fertility challenges around the holidays. I have clients going through IVF cycles this week and spending the holidays "waiting" for results. Instead of waiting for something in the future I would like to invite you to experience the gift of the present moment.

I am grateful to share my article with you. It was just published in the Creating Families Magazine in time to support you through the holidays.

Click here to read the article!

EnJOY!

My heart and thoughts are with you during this time! Find moments where you can enjoy yourself and the company of others. Best wishes to you all!

Monday, December 14, 2009

Why Forgiveness?

Forgiveness is the act of letting go. It has nothing to do with anyone else, in fact, many times you won't even involve the other person in the process of forgiveness. It has nothing to do with what they did and whether it was right or wrong, it is more about returning to a place of empowerment. When you hold anger or resentment toward someone for something they did, you are essentially giving them power over you. Holding anger is doing more harm to you, not them! Unforgiveness is a toxin in your mind and body! It will eventually cause you more pain.

Forgiveness is not only about forgiving another it is also about forgiving self. Forgiving others will help you return to a place of peace and increase your personal power, while self forgiveness is your pathway to inner peace, freedom and happiness.

I have included a poem I wrote about self forgiveness to show you an example of my process of forgiveness and how it lead me back to a sense of inner peace.

Best Friends Within
By: Sue Dumais

I release the past that holds me imprisoned.
I respect my past from which I have risen.

I release self-judgments that infected my mind.
I respect the thoughts that are gentle and kind.

I release my self critic that made me feel bad.
I respect my inner child who stills feel quite sad.

I will hold my inner child tightly in my arms.
I will comfort her and keep her from harm.

I will tell her she’s beautiful just as she is.
I will tell her she’s good no matter what she did.

I will tell her she is talented and deserves great success.
I will encourage her to reach for the stars, and no less.

I will tell her I’m sorry for being so mean.
I will tell her she’s strong after all she has seen.

I will tell her I love her with all of my heart.
I release her to live and make a new start.

She will tell me she loves me and always had.
She was lost but not gone, that why she was sad.

She will tell me she forgives me for all that I’ve done.
Together again, best friends who are one!



I invite you to think about someone or something you need to forgive. Then sit down and do one of the following forgiveness exercises. Remember forgiveness may be about someone else or SELF!

~write a poem about forgiveness
~write a letter of forgiveness (do not send it, instead you might destroy or burn it as a symbol of letting go)
~draw a picture about forgiveness and imagine the freedom it will give you
~journal about forgiveness
~meditate on forgiveness and imagine surrounding others and self with beautiful flowers or positive energy

However you get there, forgiveness is really a choice! Choose freedom! Choose Peace! Choose to live and let go!

Remember, I am here if you need support! Hugs, Sue

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Pregnancy - At what cost?


I have shared a bit about my own health issues in my previous blog posts but I have just realized in the last few months that a pregnancy right now would put my body over the edge. My health has improved significantly in the last 8 months since taking my Essentials (chelated mineral & antioxidants), Iron and liver supplements but had I conceived in the last 5 years I don't think I would have survived.

I remember after my miscarriage I was so desperate to be pregnant again that I was willing to do anything to make it happen. I thought that having a baby and becoming a Mother would make me happy. I thought it would fill the void, that dark empty feeling in my lower belly and pelvis. At the time I would have sacrificed my own life to do it.

I abused my body for many years. It was like I was trying to commit suicide with my actions. I would watch myself making poor choices and in many cases choices that could have easily took my life. On some level, I didn't care. I didn't value myself enough to care about how I was treating my body. I have done a lot of healing in the last 9 years and my fertility journey gave me a gift so great that it is difficult to put into words. I can say that today I actually care about my own health. I value myself and my body more than I ever have. I feed myself with nourishing food, take high quality supplements for additional support, practice yoga and meditation every morning and every day speak as kindly as I can to myself. I have become my own best friend and it feels good to have ME on my side.

For now I will let go of any ideas of a pregnancy until my health has improved. My health comes first because I am worth it! I deserve it! My body needs some TLC and time to heal the wounds and abuse of my past actions. I have healed mentally and emotionally so now I will continue to heal physically. I owe my body the time it needs to heal on the deepest possible level. My body has carried me through so many life experiences - through times of darkness and times of light. I grew up with so much pain and suffering and all I feel today is gratitude. From those dark experiences comes a deep gratitude and appreciation of the happiness and joy I feel today.

It is in the darkness we appreciate the light. It is in the sadness and grief that we learn to appreciate happiness and joy. It is in the depth of despair and fear that we learn to love with our whole heart!

I open my heart fully and thank you, thank you, thank you from the deepest part of me ~ Namaste

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Is it worth it? Are you worth it?

I remember in the beginning of my fertility journey being willing to try anything and everything that would help me get pregnant. I quit drinking alcohol, removed sugar/dairy and wheat from my diet, stopped intensive exercise, elevated my pelvis after intercourse etc etc etc. I was so desperate to conceive that I put my health first and started making changes in my life that previously I wouldn't consider or for years had found challenging. I was willing to do whatever I "had" to do to have a baby.

I was convinced that if I could get pregnant everything I was doing and everything I had to sacrifice would be worth it. I began to question at one point on my journey why I was so willing to make all these positive changes in my life for a baby but for years I wasn't willing to make those changes for me. I believe I cared more about having a baby than I cared about myself. I began to look at my relationship with Self.

Before wanting to conceive I tried years to quit drinking, get off sugar/carbs and reduce stress. I just couldn't do it. I would do well for a few weeks or months and then fall off track. I could see myself sabotaging my efforts over and over again. Why was I willing to do it to conceive a baby and not willing to do it for myself? The truth is at the time, I did not feel worthy. I didn't care enough about myself to change my health. I didn't like my body, in fact, on some deep level I didn't like ME!

Most of my life I hated myself and felt like I deserved to be punished so I would find ways to punish myself. It wasn't until 1993 that I began to get help and started to shift my relationship to Self. My fertility journey helped me realize that if I was willing to make all these positive changes for a baby, perhaps I was worth it too! I began to nurture my relationship to Self. I did many exercises in forgiveness of others and even more in forgiving myself.

Today I am kind, compassionate and loving toward Self. Everyday I intend to be my own best friend. While some days are more challenging than others, it gets easier everyday. My fertility journey has been about a journey to come home to Self and it has been a gift that I am deeply grateful. Every aspect, no matter how frustrating or painful, has been a gift! I share my insights with the world because I want others to realize, I want YOU to realize, YOU are worth it! Imagine learning to Mother and care for your Self before your baby arrives in your arms. Your child will learn from you self care and self worth, not by how you treat them but how you treat your Self. I invite you to become a living example of Self love.

I invite you to begin to Mother your Self and invite your baby into your heart. Surround them with the love you have for your Self and the love you have for them. It will be the most precious gift you could ever give your baby as well as your Self! Your baby is worth it! More importantly, You are worth it!