Who Am I Really?

I remember a dream where I was at an event with my 3 mentors Les Brown, Paul Martinelli and Dr Christiane Northrup. I couldn't find a seat where I could see very well so I decided to go and sit in front of all the chairs. I suddenly found myself in a farmer's field sitting in the long grass with everyone behind me watching.

There was a tractor that was pulling a large number of blades to cut the grass. Suddenly the tractor went into reverse and was coming right toward me with the blades lining up with the left side of my body. I didn't have time to stand up as the blades were coming toward me quickly so I reached out my right hand to a friend and yelled "PULL!" As she began to pull me away from the blades they were still coming toward me and I could feel the left side of my body and face being cut by the sharp blades. The rate she was pulling me away from the blades was just enough to keep me from getting run over all together.

Suddenly the tractor blades stopped and I was able to move away from the razor sharp blades. I stood up and walked into a bathroom. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I didn't recognize who I was. My left cheek was cut and looking infected and the left side of my body was bruised and bleeding.

In a panic I ran out of the bathroom frantically looking for my purse. People were staring and many were telling me I needed to go to the hospital. I was so focused on finding my purse. It was as if my life depended on finding it. The thoughts in my head were "all my identification is in there. I need it so I can go to the hospital. Without it they won't know who I am."

I woke up from the panic of my dream and realized there was deep meaning for me. I was curious as I began my yoga practice and began to reflect on what it really meant.  I realized that in my dream I didn't really know who I was. Without my purse, my identity, my credentials, my professional qualifications, the hats I wear each day, my face...who am I really? I reflected deeper and began to ask "If I am not all of those things, then who am I really?"

When you introduce yourself to someone they usually ask what you do because they want to know who you are. What do you say? How do you define who you are? Can you really sum up all of who you are in the labels society is expecting to hear? In life we become so attached to our identity, our name, our labels (yoga teacher, healer, speaker, wife etc) that we move further away from who we truly are. The essence of who we are is not in the labels or uniform we wear. It is not in our profession, qualifications or even our given birth name.

So who am I really? It is difficult to capture the essence of “who I am” in words that society would understand. My coach Paul Martinelli gave me some insight and he helped me understand how to answer this burning question. It is not about the words you use in your answer to the question of "Who am I?" What is more important is the belief you hold and the feeling you connect to when you share with others who you are.

For example, when someone asks me what I do, I may answer that I am a Speaker, Coach, Intuitive Healer or Fertility Yoga Specialist. As I speak those words I will invite the essence and energy of who I am behind those words or labels. I believe the essence of who I am is: I am LIGHT. I am LOVE. I am ONE with SPIRIT.

I used to think that I needed to prove to others I was good enough, I was smart or that I was worthy. The words have become less important. I no longer feel the need to prove to anyone who I am. I no longer need to hold on tightly to those labels because deep down inside I am connected to my sense of Self, my soul, my spirit, my essence. I am at home in my heart, mind, body and spirit and it feels so good to be home.

The next time someone asks you "who are you" or "what do you do" I invite you to take a moment before you answer and connect to the beauty, wisdom and light that is within you. You are so much more than any word or label and when you really connect to that, your life will change in ways you would never begin to imagine.

You are a unique expression of a Universal Energy. You are a powerful creative being capable of manifesting a life that you love. When you remember that, you begin to co-create with a Source that extends beyond the physical boundaries and limitations of this world. As your awareness expands, miracles happen and who you really are becomes clear.